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The Weaving Image by Linda A Spencer My life was changing. I was now God's child, adopted by God because of what Christ had done for me, and as His Word says, I became a new creature in Christ. A very comforting thing Jesus said in the Gospel of John is "I have given them eternal life, and no one can snatch them out of my hand.." There is a security in our lives with God as the Master Weaver. The threads He weaves are tightly woven. Yes, my life was changing. And it still is. God was and still is in the process of taking the "broken" threads and making them into a beautiful tapestry. You see, a weaver always takes the broken threads on the back and cuts them short and weaves them back into the weaving so they become part of the finished tapestry. One of the broken threads was fear in my life. I suffered from irrational panic attacks. I would be overcome with fear. But God, in His constant faithfulness, brought me out of "the prison of my fears." He took that broken thread and wove it in with the other ones. Learning to find acceptance His way is another BIG part of the weaving in of the broken threads. I struggled with trusting - not only others, but God Himself. I tended to assume that I was always wrong and that God or others couldn't really love me unconditionally. I felt that I somehow still had to do things to make myself acceptable or right. I still had the tendency to depend on friends to make me feel okay about myself. But God, in His great faithfulness and mercy, keeps on proving the truth of His Word. Not considering myself worthy of His love was sinful. I sensed His broken heart as He so much wanted me to just let Him love me. He used many friends and circumstances along the way to help me. God used a Christian counselor to show me how I was thinking. The Lord helped me see that His acceptance was in Jesus Christ and that whether I was right or wrong, He accepted me. Period. And that in any situation where I was truly wrong, I could do as His Word says and "confess my sins and the Lord would cleanse me from all unrighteousness."
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